I’m still in denial. It was so sudden and I still find it hard to believe. I still think that I’ll receive an email from him anytime now. I haven’t been sleeping very well for the last few days. Have to get myself really tired so that I’ll automatically doze off.
People move on. I have to move on. My research lab is going to disappear from April next year. The students will all be sent off to other labs. It’s kinda sad… But, at least we still have 6 months together. We still have 2 official lab activities left for the year. Participating in the campus festival and a study trip. Hopefully this will give all of us some closure.
Chest still hurts a little, but I’ll manage. I do have some regrets though. Some usual ones like “I should’ve studied harder”, “I should’ve listened to him more” etc. Alot of “should’ves”… actually, now that I think about it, I did not always do my best, but I always did what I could. So those regrets, are not really regrets. He was a mac otaku too. My biggest regret is that I did not show him my iPhone. ><
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take good care of yourself buddy, i read your last post. condolences for the lost of your mentor.
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but all we can say is keep chin up…
GENKI DASHI te!
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i feel your pain man. hope you cheer up soon.
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thanks guys.
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don’t think of your loss, think about the good times you had with him and i bet he would not like to see you like that, so cheer up and look forward to tomorrow.
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I personally believe that once people leave our current world, they are able to watch over us. I would imagine that your mentor would like to see you as you normally are. It is tough to lose those that we care for but, leaving this world is not an end but, a beginning of something bigger.
I hope that you find yourself during this time.
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